Lest we should forget

An elephant never forgets, such beautiful creatures.  I have collected many statuetts over the years, large ones with the tear in their eyes.  A mother and her two babies, small mantlepiece selections.  My question is how did they acquire the title of not forgetting.  Strange through the years things have been labelled with different aspects of life.

Is it good to keep all our memories, do we need them, our minds tend to get so cluttered that surely we must dispose of many.  There are some which are very special and ones which will never ever be released into the ether.

2016 was a very bad year for my family and I, in January I lost my precious husband and then at the end of the year in November I lost my lovely daughter.  These things will never be forgotten.  Now I feel a sense of loss even though I am surrounded by others.

The loss continues as others are a pair and I am one on my own,  have to sort out my life and see where I want to go.  There is a part of me which is quite content but then the sensitivity of being just me takes over.  I am not a me me person but in this instance I have to consider me before it is to late.  On the other hand what should I do, I still have my daughter's dogs so have 5 in all.  The youngest of Louise's wants all the attention and she has just cost me a £330 vets bill whereby she attacked Scrooge my lovely little one.  They were all left in the charge of my grandchildren whilst I went on a fortnights camping holiday, it happened the day before we were due back.  It isnt the first time she has got him and yet she is so gentle, they just clash.  That and a large pane of glass broken makes me wonder whether I should have gone away.

There is such a lot I really want to scream about but one always says, the least said the soonest mended but, what about the next time, no one to confide in.

So there we are I have to pull myself together and see what exactly I want to do with the rest of my life.  It makes me feel selfish as I always consider the rest of the world, the plight it is in, for me I have everything but I have lost so much.  Karma has to be solved but I need to know which way I am supposed to go.  Will just have to get my brain in gear I guess.  Take care everyone.